I just read my friend's post it on my info page. (xanga style)  I think he knows me very well and yet we've only met a couple of times.  Thanks Toe with a BEE..lol.  He's a sweety.  >_<

He's my muse at times.  The magic lasts long enough to impact my days on Earth.  yup yup.  that's my buddio.  thanks for the inspiration.

funny how one person leads to another.  I guess its a human chain event where one gal leads you to another and then eventually to the opposite sex.  anyway....I met a interesting fellow.  A mid 40 yr. old dating a friend's friend.  yeah...something like that.

both gf and bf might have known my bro back in UC Berkeley days.  yeah...bro is smart.  that i can vouch for.  I've let the bitterness settle in between me and my bro.  it's not healthy.

the fellow had some magic intuition like me.  sees through people's heart.  We both agreed that our mutual friend should not lower her standards by settling with the man she's with right now.  WE know she can make her life the way she wants it to be without the baggage...but then again we all have baggage.

he accurately pointed out mine.  I'm not surprised.  I was more surprised with how open and accepting I've become when someone just critiqued personal emotions.  I guess its something I needed to hear, but already knew.

love thy self.  it seems so simple...and I've been preaching it since the beginning of the year..but I don't think I got anywhere....lol...

baggage..it's weighing me down.  the past hurts only if I make it hurt.  And as Robert Langdon from "The Da Vinci Code" said in the movie, "People don't hate history, they only hate their own.  What happened to you in the past?"

how can I truly LET GO of it?  It's what confines me..and yet has shaped who I've become..

the million dollar answer....

be prepared for the opportunities that arise; so you'll be "lucky" enough to be at the right place at the right time because you followed the trail of the map where X marks the spot.

JUST GO FOR IT.  stop thinking about others, comparing them to yourself, or even doing it for THEM...

DO it for yourself...was this fellow's advice..

and I stared right into his eyes contemplating...that aint such a bad idea...

I'm doing good right now...so what can I do because I'm already feeling good?  awwwww...the infinite possibilities.

I'm not going to settle on life...or relationships...or friends.

why should i?